OK. This is not going to be fun. But, as part of my whole “you have to face reality” kick I have to do it. I am posting a “BEFORE” picture. It’s horrible!! But it is the truth. Pictures do not lie. I would like to think it is just a bad angle or the swimsuit is not my style, or my favorite, the camera adds 10 pounds. To quote Chandler on “Friends” : “How many cameras did they use?” So here goes:
There you have it people. Me in all of my 241.5lb glory. Looking at this makes me remember my Mom telling me one time that she likes to get a tan because it makes her cellulite look not quite so bad. Someone could easily mistake me for a man with manboobs in this picture. I have always said that I would not mind being so fat if my chest would grow to be proportionate to my butt. I have lost all semblance of a womanly figure. Notice how the separation of my butt and thighs is nonexistent. My butt is so big that it has to take up some of the room my thighs occupy. Together they make a new body part I’m going to call my thutt. My thutt is a blindingly white mass of fatty cellulite ridden flesh that is so large I think if we were to open it up we might find remnants of teeth, hair and some underdeveloped organs that were supposed to be my twin at birth but the eggs did not fully separate.
And now for the positive…
I bet my shoulders look thin from a bird’s eye view
Aren’t my hardwood floors pretty?
18 Comments
March 30, 2007 at 10:50 pm
I admire you for the difficult step you have taken here.
Just keep in mind that all we’re looking at is your starting point…nothing more or less.
When you are willing to expose yourself like this, I know that you have the determination to meet all of your weight loss and fitness goals.
Brian
April 2, 2007 at 2:08 pm
Thanks for the support. Although it is tough to remember, I have to remind myself that the journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.
April 11, 2007 at 9:19 pm
OMG! A thutt! An unseparated twin? I laughed until I cried!
I have bought Dr. Beck’s book as well, and am waiting to get it from Amazon. I wish you all the luck in the world – and most of all persistence.
Jacqueline
April 11, 2007 at 9:42 pm
My thutt makes me cry too Jacqueline! Thank you for the wonderful complement. Keep in touch and let me know how you like the book.
SFF
April 18, 2007 at 3:58 pm
I still think you look HOT!! But that may be because my manboobs are bigger than yours…lol. Not for long!
PS. Thanks for posting your pic, it has given me the courage to do the same! Look for my fatty manboobs picture in the next few days.
April 18, 2007 at 4:25 pm
Hey nomoremanboobs! Thanks for visiting and leaving a comment. You’d be surprised how liberating posting a half naked picture of yourself for all the world to see is. I thought I might just wear that everyday to work. Maybe it would make me lose weight faster. Or, I could use that picture as my wallpaper on my computer at work. Looking forward to seeing your “before” picture. The truth shall set you free!
I guess it will make our “after” pictures look that much better.
April 20, 2007 at 5:46 pm
I’d do ya.
April 21, 2007 at 11:02 am
Patrick- I appreciate the “compliment”. I think there are 12 step programs for people like you.
April 21, 2007 at 10:12 pm
I know, I’m embarrassed.
April 22, 2007 at 2:52 pm
Admitting you have a problem is the first step Patrick.
June 23, 2007 at 9:52 pm
I love it. You are my heroine now. You are about to really motivate me into joining you. I have about …….pounds to lose.
<strong>Laurie- Thanks for stopping by. What do I need to do to move from “about” to really motivate you to really really motivate you? Come jump on the wagon with me. I can’t do it by myself!
SFF</strong>
July 9, 2007 at 9:59 pm
Your courage to post your picture is amazing — actually we could be twins (except I have ugly carpet). Looking forward to reading your blogs and enjoying your great sense of humor!! You have succeeded in cheering me up several times when I have been down about my body. THANKS!!
Thanks for visiting and commenting. I think my BEFORE picture could make anyone feel better about their body! I’m glad you enjoy the blog. I do what I can to keep people’s spirits up. We’re all in this together.
SFF
July 23, 2007 at 9:38 am
I just saw your response to my post this morning. What can you do to make me go from maybe?
Well, I think I am a little afraid right now. I am afraid of change. I am getting tired of the direction I am going. I am tired of my clothes not feeling good.
The only thing that has ever worked for me in the past was me getting into a book called Thin Within. I read it before I got pregnant with my daughter and was on my way to losing lots of weight. Then I used being pregnant as an excuse for eating whenever I wanted to.
In the book they call it releasing weight because we don’t want to find it again. It dealt with the reasons we eat the way we do. It is all about grace, too. If I mess up, just get back on the wagon. No guilt. I am going to order the study and start when school starts back. Thanks for your encouragement. I don’t know if I will have the courage to put a before picture of myself on the web. You are awesome. Plus, I still think your before pic would look better than mine.
I will keep checking in with you to let you know how I am doing. Take care. Should I be honest about my starting weight? Ok……..it is 204 pounds. This is what I weighed when I was about to give birth to my first child. Pre-delivery!
August 8, 2007 at 3:36 pm
Im soooo glad someone else has wat i call a thutt (i didnt think anyone else called it that!!!) that is so funny! U have alot of courage 2 put ur pic on the internet!! thanks 4 the isperation!!
peace
October 24, 2007 at 3:14 pm
time to come in and get trim
October 25, 2007 at 5:53 pm
thutt? SFF…that is simply genius. May I have your permission to use it?
Since, I know you will say yes to my request, I’m already running future conversations in my head using “thutt”. I think it will replace my favorite word…”taint”.
Kudos to your bravery for posting your pic. I still use cartoons for posting.
November 3, 2007 at 8:24 pm
OMG, you are so hilarious! lol I was eating, but had to stop on the “twelve-step” remark, LOL! Just came upon your blog, gotta go read more
July 9, 2009 at 4:42 pm
I think it very brave to expose yourself like this.
Remember, one step at the time
Everytime you take on step you are a little closer to GOAL
Regards,
James